Who Am I, That You Would Love Me?

I know who I am. I know my past. I know my heart. I know my thoughts. I know the dark corners. I know the skeletons. I know what I am capable of. I know the heartache I’ve caused. I know who I’ve pushed away. I know who I’ve cast aside. I know I let other people down. I know how I’ve neglected you. I know how self-focused I am. I know I insist upon my own way. I know I let you down.

And still, you love me.

Who are you – that you would love me?

Who are you – that you would reconcile the distance between us?

Who are you – that you can forgive all the times I’ve turned away from you?

Who are you – that you would save me, make me beautiful and use me?

“And he passed in front of Moses, proclaiming, ‘The Lord, the Lord, the compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness, maintaining love to thousands, and forgiving wickedness, rebellion and sin.’” – Exodus 34:6-7 NIV

I know who I am because of your great love: A sinner saved by grace. A slave redeemed. A prisoner set free. A dead soul regenerated. A new creation. A child of the King.

Because of your great love, you left the glory of heaven and came all the way down to my level to lift me up to you.

Because of your great love, you took every wicked action I’ve ever committed upon your shoulders and bore the punishment so I wouldn’t have to.

Because of your great love, you experienced separation from the Father so that I might walk in fellowship with Him always.

Because of your great love, you died, so that I could live.

I am overwhelmed by your love, your grace and your mercy. How can I thank you? How can I praise you enough? How can I show you my gratitude? What is sufficient? Is there anything I can give?

“Whenever the living creatures give glory, honor and thanks to him who sits on the throne and who lives forever and ever, the twenty-four elders fall down before him who sits on the throne and worship him who lives forever and ever. They lay their crowns before the throne and say: ‘You are worthy, our Lord and God, to receive glory and honor and power, for you created all things, and by your will they were created and have their being.’” – Revelation 4:9-11 NIV

Jesus, there are not enough words to say “Thank you!” Eternity will not be long enough to praise you! If there are any rewards I have earned, or will earn in this life, what a glorious privilege it will be to lay them at your feet. What a glorious day when I will sing with all living creatures, “You alone are worthy!”

Until that day, Jesus, the only thing I can do is live for you. Take my life, Lord, and use it for your glory. It is the only way I know to say, “Thank you, Jesus! Thank you!”